What do you think got you down? I mean you boys were the life and soul, so when you told me what happened I was a bit shocked. It was so out of the blue.
Mate, I honestly didn’t see it coming. Everything was good, I’d just come back from a trip to Lakeys where we’d had mental waves and I was flying back to the UK to meet my girlfriend and jump back into a job managing one of the outdoor centres in Bundoran. I got back to find I no longer had a relationship, was really having to push really hard at work and it also felt like I was going through some sort of spiritual crisis. Long story short, I stopped sleeping, got paranoid and completely lost my shit, which ended up with me needing to go to hospital. You know I’ve looked back on this and whilst I can’t nail any one thing, I think I can say with certainty that, before this happened, I gave zero thought to my mental health. Things just happened and I’d deal with it, just shrug it off or push it somewhere deep and forget about it. What I’ve learnt since is that these feelings, traumas, experiences – well they don’t go anywhere. They are stored and waiting for an opportunity to be seen and dealt with. And I guess in my case this series of events was my trigger for everything to come bubbling up.
And how did you get over those times?
Hmm... Good question. I was kinda lucky as I had a strong feeling throughout it that although it was painful it was also necessary. I also had an amazing crew of people around me. My mate Warren was a rock, as were my family, close friends and many of the community in Ireland. In terms of strategy, first off, I talked. It sounds obvious, but it was probably the first time I could have brutally honest conversations with my family and friends and that was so healing. Also, I prioritised my mental health, stopped worrying about what other people thought and looked at ways to reduce stress in my life. I ditched coffee and alcohol, explored alternative therapies like Reiki and worked at being more healthy and on getting good sleep. I also slowly started to look at some of those things that surfaced and started to understand a little more about myself. As I mentioned before, I was also led to study Vipassana meditation and did a number of silent retreats, which were hugely beneficial and grounding. I learnt some really good life lessons that I’ve applied to many areas of my life since, and it’s probably what led me to free diving, as aspects of the two are very similar. Vipassana is only one technique though, and there are many mindfulness meditations that you can learn online or through an app. You can even just become more aware of your surroundings whilst surfing or walking – or anything that keeps you rooted in the present moment and stops your brain from jumping around! To be clear this is just what I did for myself. We all have different stories running and I’m certainly no expert. It took me time and I see my mental health as an ongoing process. I have basic techniques that keep things in check, warning signs to watch out for and, if I needed to, I’d go straight to talk to someone or visit a professional. We do need to ditch the stigma that still exists around mental health. People need to understand that it’s all just a part of being human and it’s actually often a perfectly normal response to events/ experiences and living in a fast-paced crazy world that can seem soulless at times. There is some cool stuff out there to help people. I’m following this podcaster called Blind Boy at the moment, who’s got a whole heap of great episodes on mental health and building a daily routine for yourself. He puts it across in a really fun but constructive way, so it’s well worth checking out. I’ve good friends who work in the health service and it seems like there are some excellent therapists available, but I do wish this was much more accessible and even taught in schools alongside physical ed and nutrition. Some of the techniques are super basic and it seems silly to wait until things get bad before you discover them. I keep having, ‘why the f**k didn’t someone explain this before’ moments. Anyhow, I just hope that anyone reading this will understand that whilst it can be scary at times, there are people who can help you through it and you’ll be a much happier, healthier person if you do open up, get help and do the work.